By Ela Dutt
eStart
Correspondent
India Abroad Online
TORONTO, Oct 24 –
When he is not working for the Arthritis
Community Research and Evaluation Unit or doing population research, Raywat
Deonandan is doing something else that he loves – writing.
An
epidemiologist by profession, Deonandan has written extensively on population,
rehabilitation and other scientific issues. But he has also written intensively
on his experience as the child of an immigrant family from Guyana, a West Indian
who yearns to see India, sees it and develops the love-hate relationship so many
have with that country, about growing up with racial discrimination in Canada,
and reconciling his Canadian identity.
His parents were rice farmers
from rural Guyana when they brought their two-year old son to this country. “We
lived in a very small village called "Windsor Forest", a name I always found
somewhat amusing and ironic,” Deonandan reminisced about Guyana. “I always got
the impression that my parents felt that a job was what you did to feed your
family; it wasn't necessarily part of your identity. Instead, your values,
actions, beliefs and compatriots determine your identity,” he told eStart.
For most of their lives, his parents worked in a variety of blue-collar,
mostly factory, jobs. Both are retired now. And Deonandan is waiting to get his
Ph.D. degree after defending his thesis on in-vitro fertilization this January.
“Without question, one of the most lasting impressions is that of
growing up brown-skinned in the Toronto of the early-to-mid 1970's,” recalls
Deonandan. “Back then, it wasn't the embracing multicultural city that it is
today.” Racial insults were a daily thing till he turned 10 or 11.
Imagine being dropped into a foreign land with no obvious sources of
emotional support Deonandan recounts about the life of his parents and his own.
“You speak with an accent, your cultural references are completely off, you
don't eat the same food, you're much poorer than your friends, and your value
system is much different from everyone else's,” says Deonandan, whose novel
Sweet as Saltwater, was published last year.
“Add to that the
palpable hostility shown by those around you, and you start to understand the
desperate claustrophobia felt by many immigrants of that time.” Not just that,
Canadians were largely ignorant of Caribbean culture let alone Indo-Caribbean
culture. “There were simply no common references for finding some foothold in
the mainstream culture.”
Some might have withdrawn into their shell, but
not Deonandan. He took it as a challenge and tried to excel where he was offered
a level playing field. “I think that's why so many immigrant children do so well
in school --it's the one area where we can compete fairly, so we make the best
of it. ‘
Writing the book, Sweet Like Saltwater, was he says,
“the last therapeutic gasp in exorcizing those childhood memories of
inadequacy.” With a Bachelors degree in science and mathematics and a Masters in
physiology, Deonandan is most intense when musing over his life and times.
For Indo-Caribbean children, he said, adjustment is even more
complicated. “We're asked to live between three worlds: the nation of our
parents' birth, our new home, and an idealized construct of "Mother India", our
ancestral home,” Deonandan maintains.
He seems now to have reconciled
the contradictory emotions within himself. What he likes most about being
Canadian he says is embodied in the life of former Prime Minister Pierre
Trudeau, who recently passed away. “It's supposed to be a place where one is
free to think what one wants, and free to express those thoughts.”
While
one could say the same for the United States, Deonandan concedes, “we're
different in that we temper that freedom with an ethic of compassion. Or at
least many of us try to.”
He realizes that despite the problems he faced
as a child, he would not have had the opportunities he got in Canada. “I cannot
stress enough the glories of a good education; freedom of the mind is an
unparalleled joy. There is also no better way of raising your social status, if
that's what you want. Monetary wealth gets you so far, but a fluency with the
facts, terms and issues of the world lets you float freely across social
strata.”
Deonandan went on a fellowship from CIDA (Canadian
International Development Agency) and the Shastri Indo-Canadian Institute, to
study economics for a few months. “However, I truly went because the "return to
India" is a dream held by most Indo-Caribbeans,” something like an ancestral
pilgrimage.
“I think I was able to feel things more potently there, see
things more vividly and feel things more tangibly,” he recalls about his trip.
Quipping that some of this may have been the effect of the anti-malaria drugs he
took, Deonandan also saw the reality of poverty and the frustrating layers of
bureaucracy. But he’ll take his chances and visit again given the opportunity.
Meanwhile, he bides his time awaiting his Ph.D. degree and working
full-time at Princess Margaret Hospital as an epidemiologist involved in
arthritis research. “Essentially, I crunch large datasets and write reports
about patterns of chronic disease in Ontario,” just as judiciously as he
crunches out his other writings. His goal is to be able to write books --fiction
and non-fiction-- on a full-time basis. He thinks it highly unlikely that he
could support myself doing that alone, but then like his parents, he doesn’t
believe he needs to define himself by one career or activity. “We are all
complicated people with wide skills sets and varied interests.”
But
there are several South Asian authors in Canada who have made their mark and
their living by writing, including Rohinton Mistry, Michael Ondaatje, and Anita
Rau Badami of late. There seems no reason why Deonandan could not join the set.